( she's quiet for a moment, drinking a little before admitting-- )
Perhaps it is.
( oh, lilith hadn't weighed anything up before she'd gone into it but she'd realised that she was much more content having agnes in her life than being apart from her, something that she had tried to do )
As much as hope can be-- difficult.
( the hope that nothing would happen, that no one would leave or be hurt )
Hope's bloody awful, but life's really not worth much without it.
[He knows it's kind of soft of him to admit, but Lilith already knows he's soft.
And it's true. There's not much point in existence without hope. That things will be alright, that they'll get better, work out. That the universe can't be endlessly cruel.]
[Hope that relies on someone else delivering something is always going to be more of a risk. Crowley put his hope in Aziraphale, but it was more abstract that extracting some promise of a future or power or anything from him.]
You never really told me how things are with Agnes, you know.
[Hopefully (ha) the talk of hope means it's going well.]
( if she's a little hesitant to respond it's only because she's used to having to keep such feelings locked away. the important part is that she does answer )
I am. Agnes makes me happy.
( which is why lilith had made decisions that had gone terribly wrong )
[It is nice to hear that he has helped. For all the pretense at being cool and unaffected (which he's certain Lilith has seen through by now), he likes to know that he's done something useful.]
Maybe we'll get lucky and the city'll take care of it.
[It'd be nice if Elias just disappeared off to where he came from.]
( whilst her only concern was agnes she wasn't foolish enough to believe that she was the only affected life, not after her conversations with the archivist )
And it would be possible. He isn't as powerful as he'd tell you, if you can then believe the Archivist.
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Perhaps it is.
( oh, lilith hadn't weighed anything up before she'd gone into it but she'd realised that she was much more content having agnes in her life than being apart from her, something that she had tried to do )
As much as hope can be-- difficult.
( the hope that nothing would happen, that no one would leave or be hurt )
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[He knows it's kind of soft of him to admit, but Lilith already knows he's soft.
And it's true. There's not much point in existence without hope. That things will be alright, that they'll get better, work out. That the universe can't be endlessly cruel.]
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( and that's her going soft. though he'd seen her troubled enough to know that behind her hardened facade there really is a gentle heart there )
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[Hope that relies on someone else delivering something is always going to be more of a risk. Crowley put his hope in Aziraphale, but it was more abstract that extracting some promise of a future or power or anything from him.]
You never really told me how things are with Agnes, you know.
[Hopefully (ha) the talk of hope means it's going well.]
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We have-- an understanding. About what we want.
( and how they feel )
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And are you happy?
[That's what it comes down to, really. The question is genuine, though asked lightly enough, so they don't have to get too into feelings.]
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I am. Agnes makes me happy.
( which is why lilith had made decisions that had gone terribly wrong )
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[He says it definitively, not leaving any room for doubt on her end.]
If there's anything I can do t'make things easier, let me know, yeah? With the city, I mean.
[If Elias weren't in the picture, he'd offer to contract with Agnes to bring less scrutiny to them.]
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( her own place to live, her own comforts gives her somewhere to privately be with agnes at least )
The only thing I would wish is something we cannot affect.
( which she kind of means to say that she does appreciate his offer. but she's also not going to mess with that one thing again )
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Maybe we'll get lucky and the city'll take care of it.
[It'd be nice if Elias just disappeared off to where he came from.]
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( whilst her only concern was agnes she wasn't foolish enough to believe that she was the only affected life, not after her conversations with the archivist )
And it would be possible. He isn't as powerful as he'd tell you, if you can then believe the Archivist.