[ he's quiet for a few moments as he drains the glass and pushes it away on the side of the tub. he strokes fingers over the back of crowley's hand then, petting absently at the skin, trailing across his knuckles. ]

I.. I guess I'm just.. disappointed. We talked, we were going to try to make some kind of life here, since we won't get that at home. He.. [ he trails off, swallowing. ] I love him, and I-- I know how hard it is for him to ignore the Eye, but sometimes I.. it's hard to accept that Jon's always going to give in.

[ it's an incredibly powerful eldritch monster, and martin and jon are just humans. jon can't help it, and fighting it takes so much out of him, and martin knows that, but it doesn't make it any easier. ]