I don't ever want you hurting yourself on my behalf, no. It isn't a matter of forgiveness or not. It's an abhorrent thought.

[And truly not what he was asking for, at least not with that as the intention.]

I do understand, Crowley. I'm not going to ask again. Just tell me what you do need me to accept. I want to be here for you, too.

[And escape the spiral of his own thoughts for a while now if he can.]