[The demonic thing to say would be something about how there's nothing wrong with a dirty secret, but Crowley isn't in the mood for that role.]
I'm trying to understand.
[He turns over a hand, tangles their fingers together and squeezes gently. It's not easy, letting his feelings out into the open, trying to trust that they won't be taken as something wrong, but he's trying.]
And that's not... really how I see it, I suppose. [He's calmer, at least, that curl of unpleasantness-uncertainty-turned-anger isn't there anymore, now that he's decided to trust Aziraphale.] S'like, you don't want to know the details of what I'm doing with Martin, but it's alright that it's happening, cause you know about the... general shape of it, I guess? You want to flirt with people, have a bit of fun with 'em, that's okay. If it turns into more than that, we have another conversation. It's just different when I'm around cause it's — [Self-reflection sucks, actually, but he's trying to sort through his feelings. Trying to pinpoint why things bother him beyond just the fact they do.] It's as if I'm not.. enough. When I'm right there and you flirt with someone else.
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I'm trying to understand.
[He turns over a hand, tangles their fingers together and squeezes gently. It's not easy, letting his feelings out into the open, trying to trust that they won't be taken as something wrong, but he's trying.]
And that's not... really how I see it, I suppose. [He's calmer, at least, that curl of unpleasantness-uncertainty-turned-anger isn't there anymore, now that he's decided to trust Aziraphale.] S'like, you don't want to know the details of what I'm doing with Martin, but it's alright that it's happening, cause you know about the... general shape of it, I guess? You want to flirt with people, have a bit of fun with 'em, that's okay. If it turns into more than that, we have another conversation. It's just different when I'm around cause it's — [Self-reflection sucks, actually, but he's trying to sort through his feelings. Trying to pinpoint why things bother him beyond just the fact they do.] It's as if I'm not.. enough. When I'm right there and you flirt with someone else.